I've had a lot on my mind the last two months or so.
Here is my explanation of why.
We took a long drive yesterday.
A very long drive.
It's a little over an hour to get to the clinic
and when we arrived, 10 minutes late, I was informed that
my appt. was at 10 am, not 10:30.
So we waited
and waited
and waited.
They finally called us back to a room
we went through the questions,
the history,
an inquisition, as it may be.
And after all this time,
the long drive,
and the waiting for almost an hour,
I finally got to hear what my heart had been so longing for...
a heartbeat.
Very quiet, but oh so strong and very fast.
For you see,
my dear friends,
I am expecting a baby.
A new little one will be welcomed into our family
sometime in November before Thanksgiving.
I was finally able to relax after hearing that
quiet "whosh-whosh-whosh."
The past two weeks have about driven me to distraction
with the waiting and the unknown.
Somehow, this time, a positive pregnancy test
was just not enough confirmation.
I needed to hear for myself.
And now,
peace of mind.
So now, I am allowing myself the luxury
of dreaming.
Hoping.
Planning.
And finding Inspiration.
My dreams of pink and blue,
green and yellow,
tiny booties and great big cribs.
Olivia is dreaming of mobiles and a baby sister
and finding great delight in the
expectancy.
Unfortunately, she tells us that if the baby is a boy,
we must send it back.
But if we have two babies at the same time
one can be a girl and the other can be a boy.
Michael is already thinking of paying for two college educations.
I try to tell him not to worry.
It's a long way's off.
I just want to rock my baby and see it's pretty little face,
kisses it's hands, and count the little baby toes.
Before long I'm sure I will be sharing belly pictures,
discussing announcements,
and worrying about how much weight I've gained,
but for now
it's dreams.
Sweet wonderful dreams.
And these are my inspiration.
Much Love,
Fairlight
